It's been a long time since I wrote anything here but now I am ready. My son, Brian, died in 2017 from brain cancer. He'd had 4 tumors removed and finally his body couldn't take anymore and he passed on 3/21/17. I continue to love him completely. As a mother I have felt the deepest sorrow of my life. He was such a beautiful and brilliant loving light in this world.
I"m not one to make a big display of emotions. I have tried not to burden others with my feelings about him. I wasn't the only one who lost him. He left behind his sister, his wife and his 1 yr old son. I feel like I had the most time with him in his 38 years on Earth. We were the best of friends always.
BTW if the doctors had actually given my son the type of vaccine I believed he was going to receive I believe he might have survived. I believe all cancers are caused by the herpes virus and they behave differently in different parts of the body because the tissues in each of our organs are different but essentially it manifests in the same way at core. A form of the herpes virus which is particularly virulent when hosted by s repressed immune system and the body trying to fight by encapsulating the virus in what we call a tumor, cyst, growth. The patient then becoming subject the "Standard of Care" bullshit which includes chemo and radiation EVEN WHEN THEY KNOW IT DOESN'T WORK FOR WHAT YOU HAVE!!!! The insurance companies "REQUIRE" that the patient endure the "Standard of Care" BULLSHIT! Even though it is a proven fact that it doesn't cure certain cancers including Brain cancer. I researched and searched all over the world and the only thing that made sense to me was to cure the underlying problems that repressed the immune system to begin with in combination with extracting some of the fluid from the tumor and growing the virus in a lab while also taking the virulence out of that substance and growing it in another environment with healthy white blood cells until they learn how to fight the infection. (This is what I thought they were doing when they said they had a vaccine) When I asked to verify that was it they said yes but I realized albeit too late that because I'm not a neurosurgeon I was just his mother, they just humored me and said yes. When what they meant was, "Get lost" Why should they concern themselves with feedback from a person who had given birth to their "patient" and had been with him all of his life? I just don't get it. I spent months researching and traveling to find a cure for Brian. He was and will always be a cherished member of our family.
I believe his cancer was caused by an urinary tract infection that kept recurring. They gave him broad spectrum antibiotics because they couldn't identify what it was. I was weirdly hopeful when I met 4 other people over the years who had the same problem and were now dealing with brain cancer. Two of them had had there ureters removed in an effort to stop the infection???I don't know.
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